I still remember those days when I was in sixth standard. It is a very tender age in all aspects and a child is not grown much emotionally at this stage. Same was also true for me at that age. I was not very clear about love and sex. I had never experienced love for any girl at that point. All the girls of my class were same for me as boys. There was no restriction on sitting with them. We play with them and some time even touches them too; however, never any feeling of love or sex came in my mind.
Everything was going smoothly, one day a beautiful English teacher came to our class. She was our new English teacher. This was her first teaching assignment. She had recently passed her masters in English. She was approximately 22-23 years old. Her body was average type. She was a clear example of how a beautiful and adult woman should look like. Every part of her body was in its mature state. This was my first experience of seeing a so beautiful woman. After watching her for the first time, I was clearly able to see a huge difference between her and the girls of my class.
She started taking our class. For first time in my life, I saw some kind of attraction for a girl. A strange feeling started taking control over me. Whenever I gets chance to saw her, a strange feeling to see her even more started taking over my mind. Her Dreams were now a constant affair in my life. I started attending her class and doing work given by her more seriously. I wanted to come in her favorite students. I used to feel bad when someone talks to her or tries to come more near to her. Day by day my madness for her was growing. I always wanted to remain more and more with her.
I started dreaming about marrying her. These were my true and first time feelings for someone and some kind of sexual attraction was also present in it. This experience helped me first time in realizing difference between a man and woman. I wanted to touch her and sleep with her. I wanted that she should take control over all of my responsibilities. She should make food for me, wash my cloths and remain with me forever. These are unknown feelings which gripped me then. I had never encountered them before.
On one day, she gave us a test and told us that she would give surprise gift to the topper. I don’t want to lose this opportunity, so I worked very hard for the test and stood first in class. While announcing result, she came near to me and kissed on my face as I stood first in test. For some minutes, I felt like being in heaven. For me this was like winning a big battle. With this my feeling for her started becoming even stronger. Feeling of her lips on my face was making me mad. I also wanted to kiss her.
One month before our exams news came that my favorite teacher was going to be married this week and she would never come again to school. I felt like someone had taken ground away from my feet. My dreams were shattered in just a minute. I felt very bad about the guy who was going to marry my teacher. First time a desire to grow early and propose her aroused in me. However with the passage of days everything again started to come to normal. Again I became a normal child. But defiantly she was able to teach me the difference between a woman and girl.
Also read-How I lost a beautiful woman?
Monday, December 17, 2007
My First Love My Teacher
Where we can find Love
Love is everywhere. Love is in me, Love is in you and Love is present in everything on this earth because love is God and God is Love. Love provides us the opportunity to have the divine experience. Scientifically it is difficult to tell what causes us to love. However, one thing is clear that Love can do miracles. It does not cost anything to share or give Love and true Love always multiplies itself and it never reduces.
We can never know the real feeling of the other person but still for searching true love; we do not need to worry about it. If our own feelings are true then we will defiantly get true love in our life. We do not need others acceptance or approval for it. In love it matter only that how we are ready to give it and it is very easy to give love to others. We will always get many times more love in return. However, there is one condition that our love should be free from any kind of expectation.
Indian God Krishna only gave love and love to every person. He is a symbol of love and we can learn some lesson of love from his life. We usually run here and there in the search of love and never find it but we forget to search what is near us. Love is here in our self, only we need to give it to other. If you offer love to other then they are not going to return you hatred but they will also give love back to you. Love is very simple still so many people are not able to understand it because they do not love themselves and other people around them.
How I lost a beautiful woman?
This is a story of one day of my life when I saw most beautiful woman of earth. She was really a good example of a beautiful woman and if anybody wants to know how a beautiful woman looks like then he is required to see her. She was wearing yellow sari with flowers printed on it. She was looking gorgeous. It was no surprise if anybody fell in love with her in few seconds. She was a woman whom every man on this earth will like to marry and hardly anybody would need to think for a second if he would get a chance to marry her. Her hairs were just shoulder long and she has left them untied. Her hairs were playing with her face, sometimes they were coming in front of her face and then she was again putting them back in position with her hands.
While watching all this, it looked same as moon was coming out of black clouds. Her colour was very fair. Her hand and face were like a white ice thus creating a sensation in mind to touch this ice. She was walking like a sweet breeze. Whenever, she was passing near me, I was feeling a strange emotion in my heart. She was one of the greatest works of God. The person, who was going to marry her, was definitely going to be very lucky man. On that day, I got enough time to remain near her for the whole day. Although there were lots of other people also present near us. However, my eyes were only searching for her glimpse.
I wanted to see her more and more. I tried to see her many times. Soon she realized that I was trying to see her. Then after that whenever I tried to see her, I always found her watching me back. In between, whole day got passed and evening came. I was standing on the side of my friends chair, she was seating in front of me. She was alone at that time. Now I can see her more clearly and she can also respond. Whenever I tried to see her, I recognize that she was already seeing me. This was a good and strange situation for me and I have never experienced this filling before. All this reactions were pointing that she might be interested in me.
However, I was always weak in the field of expressing my emotions. Earlier, in life also I failed many time in expressing my feelings. Second, I was at that spot for an official work. Third the woman was so beautiful that a feeling of smallness surrounded me. Fourth, a single day was very small times for me to take any important decision of my life. Finally, I decided to not involve in matter and I started avoiding the girl. Soon, she also realized this change. Then comes the time of work off and she left office for her home without seeing back towards me. At the end of day, I again lost one more beautiful woman. However still I am happy that I am fortunate enough to see a beautiful creature of God.
Introduction
Love is one of the most beautiful emotions of this world and its existence is also directly related to human existence. Every human being falls in Love at some time of his or her life and mostly, this experience remains one of the best experiences of our life. However, still there are number of people who find difficulty in understanding love or become the victims of love related frauds. In nutshell with its all positive and negative facts love is remains a great emotions and it will always make billions of people happy around the world. Some experts even say that love is a basic need for us and every person strive for this emotion. This blog is a try to make love experience of people more interesting by sharing number of facts about love with them.
Arvind Katoch
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